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Wally, I can't begin to imagine the intensity of pain that you have gone through and still have. Not being able to breathe has got to be one of the worst sensations I can imagine right up next to being burned. There isn't much that can be done to alleviate the continuous agony of trying to get enough oxygen. I am not sure about the worthiness or unworthiness of transplantation, I thought about it for a long time, wondering who would have to die to provide me with a set of lungs, and did I really want that on my conscience. So when my pulmonary Dr. convinced me that if I didn't go get the eval. I would always wonder if I might have been a candidate. Well now at least I know.
As for how long I have, I am just thankful for every day I wake up. I am sure there are lots of people far worse off than I, some with different circumstances, such as you and the things you are going through, Sylvia and her husband, John and his wife who just had a transplant, Arnie and his arteries, I have lots to be thankful for, just having my family near and friends such as all of those on MM.
Writing is a tension reliever, so is painting, and reading, and helping my friend redo my house. Laughing with my kids and grand kids, and at my silly dog. My prayers are all with you who need them, too.
Take care Steve
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