Greetings, Jax.
I agree with Larry that your poetic contribution is about as perfect in form as it could be. I also leave my heart open to anyone who struggles with "belief" and "grace" and all those religious phenomena. It's interesting that Doubting Thomas became the spreader of the Gospel into India and gave his life for his transformed belief there.
Anyhow, I think of a story I've told of talking with one of my fellow-soldiers just before the two-mile run in our annual diagnostic Physical Training Test (the one six months before our PT Test for Record). He was talking about his struggle with believing that God existed. We were interrupted to go and run the two miles. Half way through, he had a heart attack. Yes, it was a die agnostic test.
I'm sorry, Jax. Of course the story wasn't true, but I couldn't resist.
deLighting to read your thought-provoking piece, Daniel