*Absence of Light*, I love you so.... Options

[Aphrodite]

In the dark gorge of self-pity,
reflections bare mind’s unfeigned truth
surfacing marred guts of dejection.

Haunted, I unwillingly swallow
pills of lingering grief,
as my sunken insides seep a menacing venom
of upheaval.

Disheartening blankets veil radiance once evident,
while rising light shimmers etched echoes
tormenting my damaged soul.

Depleted, I continue
with scarce energy to mask the
injurious manifestation
contained in me.

In searching deep, reserves of
contentment faintly enlighten
my supplication for fullness,
and with minuscule flickers of hope,
I struggle to persist.

© Linda Balboni 2003

*I miss you Dad* October 2, 2000

[Guest__*]

Dear Lindi

This is my crit :

Since this is a totally personal poem to your father, there can be no crit .....

Love
Alan

PS I'm prepared to bet that in writing this, you experienced huge relief. One tells a child to write a letter to a dead pet, and factually, the same should be said to anyony in grief. Grief is unexpressed communication.

PPS Thank you very much for sharing this !

[Arnfinn]

Hi Lindi


It's obvious your were very close to your father.

I've read poems you've written here, and other places
about your  dad.

Thanks, for feeling, that you can share your thoughts
about your dad, with your family here at MM.


One often calms one's grief by recounting it.


Pierre Corneille :)


Kind Regards,


John

[Aphrodite]

Dear Lindi

This is my crit :

Since this is a totally personal poem to your father, there can be no crit .....

Love
Alan

PS I'm prepared to bet that in writing this, you experienced huge relief. One tells a child to write a letter to a dead pet, and factually, the same should be said to anyony in grief. Grief is unexpressed communication.

PPS Thank you very much for sharing this !

Hello Alan~

I appreciate you stopping by to comment and leave such an inspiring message.
This piece is pretty much a done deal, as the emotion spills from the depths of my soul. However, I did want to share this with my friends here at MM.
My Dad's 3 year anniversary is coming up on October 2,  and I want to always keep his lovely memory alive.
The pain is fierce at times, but with my faith, I continue on, missing him more than words can say. :(

Take care~
Lindi

[Cybele]

My Dear Lindi,

Oh how I know this feeling.  I lost a beloved son at the age of 23.

As the years roll on this all engulfing hell of grief will gradually lift unveiling all the happy, funny and wondrous times you shared during his lifetime.  Keep giving him your love.

While we remember them - they never die.


Love

Grace

[Guest__*]

Dear Lindi and Grace

"While we remember them - they never die."

This is obviously true, but there is more.

The philosophy I have much studied refers not to death, but to  person "leaving the body", for the being/spirit/whatever does not die, only a body dies.

In the Christian tradition they have this strange idea of death being "permanent", whereas almost all the other great religions have as their concept something very like the above.

Even Christianity has this belief for one person - and, before the 4th century, it was also part of the Bible, which was cut out by the Council of (I think) Nicea.

Your loved one "are", their bodies, true, are not. Rather like moving on from worn out clothes to new ones .....

Love
Alan

[Guest_Brahms_*]

Respectfully joining the comrades who've lost their
fathers does ease, all the more using your talent.

Joined peace,
Brahms

[Morgan le Fay]

Hi Lindi!

Thank you for sharing this with us.  I can understand your grief and have great empathy for your loss.   You say it has only been 3yrs since your fathers passing?  That is such a short time and I'm sure also feels like an eternity.  Grief can feel and be such lonely Abyss.  I do want to offer some words of comfort though.  Although you will never quit missing him time will replace your sadness with feelings of peace.  Grace expressed those feelings very elequently. {{{ Hugs to Grace! }}}  Time will fill the shadow you feel with all those good and happy remberances that shaped your lives together.  Love never dies and as you will love him always, so will he love you always.  {{{ Hugs! }}}

Love and stuff,
Morgan le Fay
Mistress of Magic  

[Aphrodite]

My Dear Lindi,

Oh how I know this feeling.  I lost a beloved son at the age of 23.

As the years roll on this all engulfing hell of grief will gradually lift unveiling all the happy, funny and wondrous times you shared during his lifetime.  Keep giving him your love.

While we remember them - they never die.


Love

Grace

Hello Grace~

Firstly, I send you my deepest and most heartfelt condolences for what I cannot even imagine as being the deepest and most horrific pain imaginable.
God bless you and your family in working through such loss and grief.

I appreciate your tender and comforting words, and like you, I get through most days o.k. It is so hard to accept the fact that things will never be as they were. Loss affects so many aspects of life, including changes in other families' behavior as a result. I am one of seven children and I have seen the emotional gambit ripple through my family quite harshly.

At any  rate, I believe all of us grieving, may benefit from writing and communicating our deepest feelings, so thank you for helping me this morning.

I wish you the best, and always "keep the faith." It is truly, the only thing that has brought me this far. (I definitely know that they never die) Below is one of my favorite quotes. It helps me, and I hope that somehow, it will touch you.....

You are not a human being having a Spiritual
experience, but a Spiritual being having a human experience.
Prema Baba Swamiji   ******the spirit is forever    

Hugs~                
Lindi

[Aphrodite]

Dear Lindi and Grace

"While we remember them - they never die."

This is obviously true, but there is more.

The philosophy I have much studied refers not to death, but to  person "leaving the body", for the being/spirit/whatever does not die, only a body dies.

In the Christian tradition they have this strange idea of death being "permanent", whereas almost all the other great religions have as their concept something very like the above.

Even Christianity has this belief for one person - and, before the 4th century, it was also part of the Bible, which was cut out by the Council of (I think) Nicea.

Your loved one "are", their bodies, true, are not. Rather like moving on from worn out clothes to new ones .....

Love
Alan

Dear Alan~

I totally believe in what you say. I am a Catholic, and I believe in eternal life, but in missing our loved-ones, thinking of "eternity" seems so far away.

I thank you for such loving and comforting words, and appreciate all of you wonderful people sharing your stories and thoughts.
As I intimated to Grace, my religious belief is the only concrete thing that gives me great comfort.

God bless you and hugs~            

Lindi

[Aphrodite]

Respectfully joining the comrades who've lost their
fathers does ease, all the more using your talent.

Joined peace,
Brahms

Hello Stephen~

Thank you for taking the time to read my piece and for leaving such sensitive and comforting words.
I truly appreciate it.

God bless you~          
Lindi

[Aphrodite]

Hi Lindi!

Thank you for sharing this with us.  I can understand your grief and have great empathy for your loss.   You say it has only been 3yrs since your fathers passing?  That is such a short time and I'm sure also feels like an eternity.  Grief can feel and be such lonely Abyss.  I do want to offer some words of comfort though.  Although you will never quit missing him time will replace your sadness with feelings of peace.  Grace expressed those feelings very elequently. {{{ Hugs to Grace! }}}  Time will fill the shadow you feel with all those good and happy remberances that shaped your lives together.  Love never dies and as you will love him always, so will he love you always.  {{{ Hugs! }}}

Love and stuff,
Morgan le Fay
Mistress of Magic  

Hello Morgan~

Thank you so much for taking the time to read my poem, as well as leaving such heartfelt words.
I truly appreciate the tenderness and loving words, and I hope that all of the inspiring comments help all of us get through the hard times. The pain and emptiness never completely leaves, but inspiring hopeful words cushion the blow.

Your words are very comforting.  

God bless and hugs to you~          

Lindi

[Aphrodite]

Hi Lindi


It's obvious your were very close to your father.

I've read poems you've written here, and other places
about your  dad.

Thanks, for feeling, that you can share your thoughts
about your dad, with your family here at MM.


One often calms one's grief by recounting it.


Pierre Corneille :)


Kind Regards,


John

Hello John~

I am sorry, I almost forgot to respond back to you.
Thanks, so much for your sweet comments.
Yes, I have written many poems about my Dad, and it helps so much to pen down my thoughts.

I appreciate your kindness so much! What a testament to how great Lori's site is, that in less than a couple of months, MM feels like family and has the warmest and most talented writers around!
You are all so great! :pharoah2

God bless and hugs~          

Lindi

[Guest__*]

Dear Lindi

Exactly true about the "family" here !

I loved "to pen down my thoughts" - how very poetic !

Love
Alan

PS ..... and of course, in my case, you're my Mum - you begat me here !


Hello Alan~

Mosaic is so different. The people here seem to truly support one another and offer such positive feedback.
People like you, make this such a wonderful and enjoyable retreat for writing and sharing.

I am proud to be called your Mum.

*Love*


Lindi

[Aphrodite]

Dear Lindi

Exactly true about the "family" here !

I loved "to pen down my thoughts" - how very poetic !

Love
Alan

PS ..... and of course, in my case, you're my Mum - you begat me here !


Hello Alan~

Mosaic is so different. The people here seem to truly support one another and offer such positive feedback.
People like you, make this such a wonderful and enjoyable retreat for writing and sharing.

I am proud to be called your Mum.

*Love*


Lindi

Hello Alan~

Please, read the post before this one.

Blessings~
Lindi

[JustDaniel]

Thanks for sharing this, Lindi.

I lost my mother last August on my Son's 30th birthday.

Blessings in Light, Daniel  :sun:

[Aphrodite]

Thanks for sharing this, Lindi.

I lost my mother last August on my Son's 30th birthday.

Blessings in Light, Daniel  

Hello Daniel~

How are you doing? Gosh, it has been way too long since I have had any communication with you.

Thanks, for your tender words, and although I have sent my condolences for the loss of your Mom before, once again accept my deepest and heartfelt sentiments.

It is so hard to accept the reality of death, but through our strong faith we will continue on knowing that someday, we will all be together again.

I miss you!  

Blessings~
Lindi